Thursday, January 14, 2010

Fighting Impatience

So I feel like I am waiting for the referral call all over again...but this time, thank the Lord, I have a sweet face to stare at as I wait.
It is no suprise to those who know me that I am IMPATIENT! I get irritated easily over things that mess up my "flow"(whatever that may be! ha!). So what does our God, who has a great sense of humor I might add, ask me to do? ADOPT! One of the things in this life that requires more patience than anything else I know of! He planted that desire in me years ago, and this last year really reved it up and here we are following in obedience (though it can be painful) smack dab in the adoption "process". We waited what seemed like eternity for our BIG CALL...it came just last week and I was READY! Ready to get the paper work signed, notarized, shipped, make phone calls, print pictures, bring it on! But what now has the Lord asked us to do???
WAIT SOME MORE!!! HOLY COW!!!! So....here we are....waiting for the last of Micah's blood tests to come back before we can even send off the paperwork I was so eager to finish and make it official!

I am re-reading "Future Grace" by John Piper, but skipped back a few chapters to one that I really needed to re-read again!!
Faith in Future Grace vs. Impatience
Lots of you who read this are waiting yourselves and so I hope this encourages you as it does me and reminds you of how good our God is!

"~Impatience is a form of unbelief. It's what we begin to feel when we start to doubt the wisdom of God's timing or the goodness of God's guidance....
~Patience is the capacity to "wait and endure" without murmuring and disillusionment- to wait in the unplanned place and endure the unplanned pace ...
~Patience is the evidence of an inner strength. Impatient people are weak, and therefore dependent on external supports- like schedules that go just right and circumstances that support their fragile hearts. Their outcomes of oaths and threats and harsh criticisms of the culprits who crossed their plans do not sound weak. But that noise is all a camouflage of weakness. Patience demands tremendous inner strength...
~the glorious might of God (referred to in Colossi ans 1:11) that we need to see and trust is the power of God to turn all our detours and obstacles into glorious outcomes...
~The key to patience is faith in the future grace of God's "glorious might" to transform all our interruptions into rewards."

So this may be a detour and interruption in my mind, but by faith in my God, I know that this wait will only bring about a glorious outcome!
Thank you God for strengthening us as we wait and for bringing about a glorious outcome, even when we can't see it...my faith is in You!

2 comments:

  1. We are praying every day for this test to be completed so you can get back in MOTION!! Thank you for these awesome quotes from the book, I know we will refer back to them often in the coming weeks.
    Much love,
    #1 :)

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  2. Hi Angie. My name is Susan and the referral you just received brought me to #1 on the infant boy's list. I thought that would bring me some solace, but it's turned out to be more of a torment instead. I've known that I'm unofficially #1 for over a week and the anticipation of "the call" has left me with such anxiety. Thanks for your post. What a rebuke to my impatience:) I needed that. I pray my referral will come soon so that I can be in the same travel group with you and Cristie. I'd love to meet both of you and have the privilege of picking up our boys together. I'll be praying that test is completed soon. God bless. -Susan

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